"What a depressing title he got there!"
I assume that's what you think when you read the subject matter. Well, I for one, am done with those depressing shenanigans. It doesn't get me anywhere near my dreams, goals, and let alone, love. BUT, I am pretty depressed right now to be frank. I know there are not much readers here so I suppose I can rant some ingenious bullcraps of mine. I am having this exam tomorrow (yes people, I am back in school/university/college/whatever you wanna call it) and I just started studying exactly an hour ago (yet, look what I'm doin right this very minute). For those who really curios about my life (I am pretty certain there is at least one person in this planet that feel that way), I am currently interning in one of my dream companies in Singapore in which organize and manage two of the most prominent fashion events of the nation. I don't want to state any name so let's just assume you guys know which company and events I am talking about. It's been 3 days and so far it's fine. Just one thing that I am really worried about right now is that I can't juggle work and study at the same time. At first I thought I can handle this kinda situation, but try as I might, I am not a great multi-tasker (if that's even a word). That fact has been haunting me these past few days ; what if I flunked my exam because of this seemingly hazy dream of mine? There are too many what ifs to be listed you have no idea. I know it's too late for me to regret my decision of going back to school but one can't stop repent of how naive he thought when he went with that particular life choice. Yes, it is true that there is absolutely no use to feel sorry about something that has elapsed ; but I guess I just need to blur out the commotions I'm having rather than throwing them out to the magical bowl of escapade (read: alcohol). Yes yes yes, I hear you ; you might think I'm a pussy for always running to something that is clearly bad for my precious kidney and verbally vomit these shenanigans on the impeccable social media, but hey, don't judge if you don't want to be judged, aight? After all, it's been ages since I rant here. So I hope you're cool with the fact that I am writing to myself and not having you guys, the readers, in my mind for once. Also, if it's any consolation, I am thinking of shutting down this page for good. So, fret not.
Ahhh.. anyways, I guess I gotta back to what I am suppose to be doing (reading the exam materials that is). If there's anyone reading this, please cross your fingers and other flexible parts of your human anatomy for me so I can pass my exam (or at least not to give a shit to any words my brilliant classmates might throw). Good night strangers, bless your souls.
