His Elusive Notions

Hit the Beat

2011-07-27T01:09:00.003+01:00

The Brazilian revolutionary and audacious style icon, Alice Dellal, has once again married fashion and music. This time, she tied the knot between those two elements through Matthew Donaldson’s ground shaking short. Dolled up in lingerie by Bordelle and DKNY, the punky heiress shows off her forte as a drummer in which captivated viewers’s eyes, resulting us to dote on Alice even more.

Source: Nowness

Farewell, Kitty Cat

2011-07-27T00:50:00.003+01:00

She's My Sister

2011-07-07T03:48:00.004+01:00

and she ain't nothin' like me.

Dear Haggie,

2011-06-17T03:40:00.000+01:00

Be Kind Remind

2011-05-19T01:21:00.003+01:00

Skee-Lo - "I Wish" (1995)

Thanks to Dianna Agron's version of 'blast from the past', I have a song to keep me company this dawn. Pretty good tune for cruise collection presentation, don't you think?

Eye of an Angora

2011-05-15T06:51:00.001+01:00

Photography: Alan Avina

Styling: Rajnikania Sarwono

Staggering images above are one of the editorial shoots styled by a friend of mine, Rajnikania, who is currently studying in the same institution as me. Am going to help her with her upcoming project that is due in couple weeks and frankly speaking, I'm kinda excited to see the outcome. Wish us luck, dearest enthusiasts.

New Genre of Splendor

2011-05-14T04:22:00.002+01:00

Was browsing through Facebook couple minutes ago, and there I was enticed by one link attached on my friend's page. The magnanimous French fashion house, Dior, apparently held a presentation for their brand new Addict lipstick range in one of the so-called enthralling cities in the globe, Paris. It's interesting how Dior finally did what Missoni and other brands among their peers did, presenting a new range of product in the most beguiling way. This undoubtedly high-budget presentation took place at the suite of Plaza Athéneé couple months ago, showcasing opulent ambience and the luxury brand's artifacts, emphasizing on the Addict Lipstick range, in every corner of each room. Looking at the pictures, I was impressed by this sort of new approach that Dior practiced ; the fashion house managed to establish such beauteous arrangement without looking desperate to its rivals and aficionados. The fact that Dior Lipstick's video ad, which starred the everlasting ace model Kate Moss and directed by Jonas Akerlund, goes exceptionally hand-in-hand with the presentation, Dior gain straight As from me and everyone else I bet. Long story short, Dior defines and twists the meaning of luxury. Nonetheless, the big fat question mark still remains ; who's going to continue the legacy of the infamous anti-Semitic Galliano? We shall see.

Source: The Blonde Salad

One Subdued Stimulant

2011-05-13T18:38:00.004+01:00

Saskia de Brauw x M Le Monde May '11

As many of you have probably known (or perhaps no one in this matter), I have this strong bond with monochromatic pictures. I'm aware that some people think that they are somehow boring and dull, and as oppose to polychromatic images, black and white pictures are just not suitable for fashion imagery. I, however, perceive that differently. It's undeniable that monochromatic pictures can't deliver what polychromatic pictures can, yet, if you see between the shot, you will understand the viewpoint I stand for. Yes, emotion that is. Imagine these racy and dashy pictures of De Brauw in colours and take a moment ; will that fetish themed accessories look as arousing as it suppose to be? Admit the fact fellows, it won't.

Source: FashionGoneRogue

Hometown Hero

2011-04-27T16:34:00.001+01:00

Lady Gaga x Tex Saverio (Harper's Bazaar May '11)

Despite Tex Saverio's too-similar aesthetics of McQueen, It's relieving to see Indonesian designer's piece on international publication. Saverio is officially one of my hometown heroes.

2011-04-11T01:48:00.001+01:00

"You talk to loners, you ask how's your week, when I feel unknown"

Forever Young

2011-04-05T02:11:00.003+01:00

Another brilliant production of Ari Seth Cohen. The guy is indeed, visionary, showing us that beauty is without no doubt, ageless, and reminding us to never sweat our style.

Source: Nowness.com

One Whimsical Soiree

2011-03-19T19:24:00.001Z

One costume party I won't ever forget till the day I hit the grave + the only day I could unleash my inner Motown diva (please don't laugh at me)

Alchemical Hands

2011-03-18T05:26:00.001Z

Proenza Schouler F/W '11

By around this time I'm pretty sure that those who call themselves 'vogue aficionados' or simply own a blog that screams 'oh-my-gawt-I-wanna-be-as-glamorous-as-fashion' are aware of the existence of Jack and Lazaro's Proenza Schouler. If you're not, I reckon that you live in your own bubble or simply couldn't be bothered. Either way, if you consider yourself as a hardcore groupie of fashion, then get yourself together and try to look up at them, cause Hamish Bowles told us so. Anyways, let's smash the keyboard and start reminiscing.

Proenza Schouler F/W '11 collection is all about absorbing the strong geometrics and homespun fabrics of Native Indian blankets and transform those ingredients into visually dashing pieces. Who to thank for this collection? Well, I would say everyone who resides in Santa Fe all the way to Wyoming. Both Jack and Lazaro hit the road after their last collection and galvanised by them blankets. I find it amazeballs that these guys can create such exquisite choices of garments with a casual item as a starting point. They must be really thoughtful, or at least pure geniuses since the prints on those trousers, beautifully cut sheath dresses, and the impeccable swing-skirted are indubitably mind-blowing and potentially to kneel for. As Bowles himself said, "This, surely, is a modern approach of couture", I believe Proenza will beat the asses of Wang and Jacobs on the upcoming CFDA's Fashion Award. Amen.

Images: Style.com & JakandJil

2011-03-09T04:04:00.000Z

Well, that's me smooching my ultimate crush, Mujde, during last few hours of the uber fascinating carnival/costume fiesta me and my friends arranged last Saturday in celebration of whimsical boredom. Photos (and favorite F/W11 pieces) are coming up soon. Thus, behold.

Subtle Seduction

2011-03-08T02:12:00.003Z

Givenchy F/W 11

Bearing the fact that weeks of fashion are reaching their end, I, as an enthusiast, would like to share series of post which comprise my favorite pieces of this season, starting from this one.

Let's start with what Riccardo Tisci has offered us couple days back. As the virtuoso put himself, "There's more sex than usual", Givenchy F/W 11 collection embodies power of roaring females alongside alluring touch of seduction (the mystical sheer, that is) in the most subtle way. Tisci has once again flatter these eyes of ours with his signature single silhouette in which depicted from the tres magnifique loose-fitting sweater and razor-thin knee-length skirt. Despite the muted color palette, the man still managed to include one combo of intense yellow sweater hand-in-hand with printed yellow pencil skirt, that I personally found, shockingly stimulating in every possible sense. Looking them in details, I bet no one is in agony with the accessories he displayed. Fur-covered cat eye sunglasses and baseball caps with ears might sound freakishly tacky plus a bit mundane to some of you, but wait till you see them amalgamate with those ferocious panthers, you'll snarl like your rent is due tomorrow.

The moment I witnessed this collection, I couldn't help but growl my pants off. How could I not? Those proud Parisian panthers really turned me on! As for the sex? Bettie Page print says it all. I mean, who would've thought the late Miss Page still got her swagger on after all these years? Geez, Tisci seriously has his own trick to blow our mind (or in this case, mine). From this moment on, I'll be crossing my fingers and other flexible body parts, hoping that Tisci won't leave Givenchy for Dior (or designing for both) simply because the fashion house has to find another anti-semitic flamboyant to replace Galliano, just not Tisci.

I Should Rare My Way Back Home Right Now

2011-03-03T02:51:00.001Z

Current sing along tune. Someone please take me back to those good old days.

Is There Still Anything Out There ?

2011-03-02T02:36:00.000Z

Yeah, go figure.

Don't be a Drag, Just be a Queen

2011-02-28T18:53:00.000Z

Director: Nick Knight -- Styling: Nicola Formichetti

Lady Gaga has once again slap us with a "sexual orientation pride" tune. "Born This Way" music video was globally released earlier today directed by Showstudio's Nick Knight and styled by Gaga's favorite (and most astonishing) faggie/Thierry Mugler Men's creative director/personal stylist Nicola Formichetti. I, for one, think that the video has its own exhilarating ick (yes, read that positively) and quiet blatant Thierry Mugler plus Pink Floyd atmosphere written all over it. If you google the lyrics, it shows how this so-called mother of monsters melodiously support all kind of human anatomies and orientation wise (as everyone has predicted) through lines such as "don't be a drag just be a queen" or "don't hide yourself in regret, just love yourself and you're set". Yes, she is thoughtful but what is lacking from this song to me is her cynicism or thrilling punch lines. But yea, who am I kidding, this song still get my swagger on. Put your paws up people, cause this Lady gonna leap over Madonna & Cher's face soon enough.

Talentless Nitwit

2011-02-21T02:36:00.004Z

The image attached above represents my current commiseration. I feel like a failure, a complete one. I've had enough of society and the industry I'm in at the moment. I couldn't bear the fact that I chose a wrong path. No one would ever get the drift of what I've been through, cause they have no idea how does it feels like to walk in my potentially destructive shoes. I can't even remember how real fun feels like these days. I guess I'm just a guy who has crappy physique and mentality. That's all.

Save My Life Oh Dear Sir

2011-02-11T00:58:00.000Z

I wander around the mighty world wide web couple days ago (I was supposed to study for my exams that day, but oh well, fck it) and look what I've found! Yes, one of my virtuosos is going to perform live next week at O2 arena! Without further ado, I booked the ticket (which the fee was surprisingly quite reasonable) and decided to attend the concert by myself. It's funny that I just posted two of his works a week before, and the next thing I know, I'm gonna see him in person with the spunky Business Int'l next Tuesday! Although I haven't been following your music religiously, I believe you're gonna enthrall me Sir Ronson, but just bear in mind, I'm not coming for a disappointment, I could really use your magnetic groovy tunes.

Ethereal Reverie

2011-02-08T18:46:00.000Z

Elle Fanning x Rodarte

Just went back from uni, I instantly turned my laptop on and logged in to Facebook. I checked out my good friend's profile, Ansy, and there it was, a link of Rodarte and Todd Cole's latest fashion film starring Dakota's grown-up little sister and the designers' muse, Elle Fanning, entitled The Curve of Forgotten Things. The film encompasses the ethereal pieces from Rodarte's S/S 11 collection that magically displayed throughout the scenes. The dreamy ambient really entice and rejuvenate my senses, knowing that I just got back from a pretty darn long day, and not to mention, final exams. Seeing Elle Fanning pirouettes the vicinity make me wonder, how could Mulleavy sisters and Todd come up with such concept? I bet they already have a vision of how nirvana feels..

Video: Nowness

Cool, Edgy, and Rock & Roll Much?

2011-02-08T01:17:00.000Z

Read the post title cynically. If you feel insulted, bullseye, I gotcha. Cheers!

Newfound Mates (I Guess)

2011-02-04T01:50:00.004Z

These are my survival kits, the ones who keep me a wee bit sane here in the United Kingdom of Monochromatic Sphere. Thanks fellas, let's laugh our asses off.

Britain's Got Talent

2011-02-01T02:14:00.002Z

Having nothing to do at home (apart from doing assignment, which I'm not in the mood for) made me realise how fast time flies. I know you guys might think, "what does it have to do with the videos you attached above, dumb ass?". Well, let me tell you this. It has been more or less 4 months since I first started my so-called journey here in London. Frankly speaking, the first couple months had been excruciating, but after a while, I'm getting used to the town's infamous appalling and truly unpredictable weather, plus the almost-vibrant-but-not-yet-there ambiance.

However, when it comes to art scene, I gotta admit that London truly has its own magnetism. Take Mark Ronson for instance. Despite his love for other countries/cities with strong culture and values like Japan and New York, this British lad still manage to keep his English quirkiness and heritage in every music video he starred. Notice how those two videos linked to one another? Yes, that's how idiosyncratic he is. In terms of style, his whole look figuratively screams 'London', or if you familiar with the scene here, you might as well label him as an absolute image of 'East London Bloke'. Up till this point, every time I stroll around Shoreditch/Hoxton or any other place in the vicinity, I instantly turn my best mate (read: iPod) on and play those two tunes right away. Yes, I admire him that much I even tried to do my hair like him, which of course ended up in a false alarm. I looked more like 'Rusty Mark' (or Mark Rongsok in my language. it sounds funnier in Bahasa Indonesia, isn't it?) than Mark Ronson. Anyways, please do watch the videos and tell me how you think of em. If you think he should go screw himself, then sorry to say, you obviously have to go to the nearest corner shop and get yourself a 'taste'. Ta!

Politically Seductive

2011-01-28T17:20:00.001Z

I've been listening to this song for the past couple days. The alluring video itself features Devendra Banhart and girlfriend Rebecca Schwartz, captured by Lisa Eisner for Oliver Peoples' latest campaign. I have to say, Banhart's tunes, particularly this one called "Brindo", really get under my skin. It awakens my unconscious mind, in a depressing yet soothing way. Now I know exactly why my friends praise him to the very core. Enjoy your evening and happy gazing, people.

Middling Endeavor

2011-01-27T21:12:00.005Z

Mugler F/W 11 Menswear

Taken over by my formidable idol, Nicola Formichetti, the French fashion house Thierry Mugler, or people know nowadays as Mugler, launched its Fall/Winter 2011 menswear collection exactly a week ago. I gotta say I've been waiting for this collection since the day Formichetti announced that he was appointed as Mugler's creative director. When I finally witnessed the whole range of Mugler's debut in menswear, I couldn't help but wonder, does Formichetti know what he's doing?

Judging from Style.com's review and my lackluster viewpoint, he sort of does, but not really. Rumor has it, during the show, Formichetti's so-called fellows whispered to each other saying that the whole collection is rather styled than designed. As much as I love and adore him, I gotta say that his petty acquaintances do have a point. His choice of muted hues and couple of bold colors are fine but they don't really show Mugler's aesthetics. Well yes, the plastic-and-latex-covered face is quite interesting, but still, it's not something new and revolutionized. In fact, it's like something that Margiela & Dior Homme do in terms of styling and design elements. Other things that kinda bug my sight are the 60s Southern American housewife necklace and not-so-avant-garde ambience that he put altogether with some of the looks. It is too emasculate and GaGa-obvious for my taste, considering the diva-in-question influence on Formichetti. Despite of all the slightly dramatic criticisms, I have to say he did one galvanizing fashion film for this particular collection. I'm deeply sorry my golden boy, but I guess you have to think twice before you do something this massive. But don't you worry, I'll still look up to you and your quintessential works, no matter what.

Images: Style.com

Simply Rad

2011-01-17T23:04:00.007Z

Givenchy Pre-Fall 2011

I was browsing through tumblr the other day, and all of a sudden, there it was, one little collage of 4 massive beauties posted by my fellow tumblr-mate. Yes, Ricardo Tisci did his magic for the 2837349th time (yeah I lost count on how many times he successfully impressed these weary eyes of mine). Them dark brown and khaki palettes truly signify the real definition of du juor, like, again, massively. How bout the see-through long dress you say? Well, I'm not a big fan of any translucent garment (yes, even lingerie), but for the sake of Tisci's ethereal aesthetics, I'll make an exception. Geez Tisci, how I wish I could sneak in and take a peek of your beguiling vision.

Strike a Pose

2011-01-16T11:50:00.003Z

This adorable young lady, a classmate of mine,

gave me this cutie shutterbug brooch handmade and crafted by herself yesterday,

When she first gave me, I was like "goodness Mujde, you're too kind and this thingy is way too cute! now I have something that can remind me of you!". It's good to know that she thought of me during last Christmas break. Well, basically, the thought of me being in someone's mind is just.. I don't know, lovely. Anyways, teşekkür ederim, Miss Polatkan!

Propaganda Much ?

2010-08-28T21:03:00.004+01:00

Post-Graduation Blues

2010-08-11T20:42:00.002+01:00

It's been a while since I last post. I've been meaning to be productive during my hiatus and do some writing here but seems like the plan didn't work out knowing that I have nothing to write about. Okay, that sentence doesn't make any sense I know. Well anyway, it's been almost 2 months since I graduated from my Advanced Diploma in Fashion Marketing & Management and I just want to tell you how much I miss my school days. Yes, this might sound a wee bit loony but I kinda miss having pile of assignments to deal with and not to mention, the drama in between. The thing that I pine the most is my Final Marketing Project (FMP). It's funny that every time I go back and read on my tweets during those days, I sounded incredibly pissed and full of animosity, yet now I miss every inch of the process. I still remember the first day of FMP1 when my lecturer asked me what kind of brand I desire to establish, I instantly replied "A shoe line that fuses the essence of art and fashion called Elusive". I'm not trying to be superstitious or else, but that time, there was some kind of voice in the back of my head saying "C'mon kid, you gotta make this happen". And there it goes, 6 months full of excitement and emotional distress, my group mates and I finally gave birth to Elusive, the Fusion of Art and Shoes.

From products, to ad campaign, to video ad and business plan, we executed them with our own brains and hands. I must say that was the first time I felt proud of myself. In fact, up till this very second, I still am. How could I not be? After all these years, I finally realized one of my notions and it turned out almost as fantastic as I expected and I thank The Almighty for that and of course my elusive ladies: Sam, Ita, Nessya, Angeline, Marshiella, and Shelvy. Without them, none of this could ever happened!

Okay, enough with the long and winding introduction. Here's Elusive's ad campaign and video ad, enjoy and lemme know what you think. Cheers!

Elusive Spring/Summer 2010 Collection

"Movement of Art"

Photography: Chuck Reyes

Art Direction: Samantha Potenciano

Styling: Daud Gultom

Hair/Make-up: Xara Lee

Set Design: Marshiella Apriani

Wardrobe: Saturday from Nicholas

Model: Olesya Pogodina/Upfront

Video Ad

Director/Editor: Samantha Potenciano

Styling: Daud Gultom

Hair/Make-Up: Ita Achjadi & Nessya Trifena

Model: Solange Majewska

Man About Town

2010-07-09T14:05:00.003+01:00

Being a fresh graduate is not easy for me; I have to cope with my monotonous life and not to mention, being a super lazy ass. But still, every dark cloud has its own silver lining. Now I finally have time to browse through Spring/Summer 2011 menswear collections from my so-called favorite virtuosos. Without further ado, I present to you my favorite pieces:

Lanvin S/S 2011 Men (Elbaz & Ossendrijver's interpretation of 'Antidote of Laziness')

Marni S/S 2011 Men (When Masculinity meets Chic)

Acne S/S 2010 Men (Flawless Silhouette I must say)

Commes Des Garcons S/S 2011 Men (Skull and Cocktail Dress never look this macho)

Dior Homme S/S 2011 (True Portrayal of Sleekness)

Alexander McQueen S/S 2011 Men (Well done, Miss Burton. McQueen must be proud of ya)

Yves Saint Laurent S/S 2011 Men (Major Obi Belt alert)

Images: Style.com

Extra Stupendous

2010-07-08T22:49:00.004+01:00

Givenchy Fall 2010 Couture

Images: Style.com

How could you not fall head over heels with these magnificent pieces? Yes, Jesus has once again rejuvenated Ricardo Tisci's senses and we all can see the after effect. The details, the fabrics, the execution, the silhouette, these are what I called artworks. I'm aware of the fact that I can't wear one but I don't mind if anyone willing to bestow these couture pieces upon me, I could always use it as a spur. Oh hail to Tisci for his astounding works.

Glamorous My Ass

2010-06-27T22:51:00.001+01:00

"   Karl Lagerfeld once said, 'Fashion is ephemeral, dangerous, and unfair', and I couldn’t agree more. Despite all the negative stereotypes, fashion has been my passion ever since I was a teenager ; to promote and write about it is such an enlightenment for me and truth be told,  fashion brings out the positivity in each and everyone of us. I believe fashion is not about being stylish or glamorous, it is about the way people express their notions and creativities toward art."

Above is the snippet of my write-up for my graduation book. Anyone agree to what I say? Please say yes and no hard feelings. It's just an opinion, you can always disagree but please do think twice before you say no. Cheerio.

Loco Molko

2010-06-21T23:52:00.001+01:00

Things have been gaga lately. From birthday rituals to the preps of upcoming graduation day, I suppose I suffer from dementia. School has been giving me a lot of pressure, weekends are no longer fun, so on and so forth. Yea I'm not going to babble all those crappy stuffs here, I've littered them all on papers. On the positive note, I had fun during my friend-for-almost-9-years birthday surprise. I managed to brought her a mini sex doll with her ultimate crush's face on it, McSpicy as the birthday cake, and an animal print fuchsia vibrator as the birthday gift. I know I'm thoughtful, there's no doubt about it. I have no idea why I write these things here, I just feel like I have to tell the whole world that I finally came up with something more provocative than condoms and lubricants, which are overrated.

My oblations to the Goddess of Ignorance, Zephania

Happy legal age, my ethereal vajayjay.

Beginning of an Endless Voyage

2010-06-11T22:46:00.006+01:00

AMICA Magazine Singapore (March-June 2010 Issue)

First and foremost, I have no intention on showing off or whatsoever ; this is simply just an act of desperation of one wretched soul that would like to appreciate himself and the works he has done in the past 5 months. I've been interning at this fashion & lifestyle magazine called Amica, which was originated from Italy, here in the monochromatic nation of Singapore. Yes I am not ashamed to admit that I am proud of myself (although I'm just an insignificant writer and stylist's assistant and my parents plus few other people don't seem to be happy about this).
The images you've seen above are the works that I have done so far and I just want you to know that I've been working my ass, bones, brain, hands, and every other body parts for this so-called lifetime opportunity, so please don't judge me and give me a break by letting me feel a wee bit victorious and enjoy every inch of my works. I know they may not seem to be legit to you at all, but frankly speaking, if I were you, I would just click the critique button below and spare this poor soul one or two comments rather than keeping them to myself.

Merci beaucoup, les miserables.

True Elucidation of Role Model

2010-06-10T00:00:00.001+01:00

Sonny Groo (23)

Editor-in-Chief of MYKROMAG

Visionary at such young age. Indubitably inspiring.

I Mused on These

2010-06-09T23:15:00.002+01:00

RUSSH Magazine June '10

Tony Ward & Ieva Laguna
Photography: Will Davidson

Styling: Stevie Dance
This is what I called, unconventionally stunning

Guilty Pleasure Song of the Month

2010-06-09T20:53:00.001+01:00

Formichetti, you've done an amazing job. Gaga would not be as big as this if it wasn't for you.

OST. Elusive Notions

2010-05-24T21:51:00.001+01:00

"Have you ever felt before, that everyone around you knows the deal, except you, and it makes you feel like a moray eel, green and blue"

Note to Self

2010-04-03T19:10:00.003+01:00

So you think you know all about life.
So you think no one understands you.
So you think you're the only one who's being neurotic all this time.
So you think you know much about what other people thinks.
So you think you're the best among all.
So you think you're the worst among all.
So you think you have done so many good deeds.
So you think you know exactly what I've been through.
So you think you're the most positive persona on earth.
So you think you're the most negative individual in this universe.
So you think I've been exaggerating stuffs.
So you think you can criticize the way I act, think, and look.
So you think you're everything?
Well, truth be told, you don't, you're not, you haven't, and you can't.

An Empty Jar of Life

2010-03-29T23:36:00.005+01:00

When I was 6 years old, I believed in Santa Claus. No, I never believed in fairy tale unlike any other kids. I always considered fairy godmother, dwarfs, and elves as illusions that people made of to eased their pain. I always thought that they are nothing but magical characters that people can only find in Disney fairy tales. Don't get me wrong, I loved those fairy tales. Snow White, Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast, Alice in Wonderland, name all the fairy tales, I enjoyed reading them through books and watching them through classic cartoons. I, once, secretly wished that a fairy godmother helped me through the hard times, all the bullies I suffered from my teachers, classmates, and members of the family that was. Years and years passed by and I finally came to my senses that there's no such thing as fairies. It's getting close to my birthday now and I'm turning 21 this year. As the years go by, I continually disbelieving other elements of life. Hope, future, dreams, love, and friendship, I seem to lose my trust on them. Things are falling apart as I walk down the path of life. I used to hope that people, my beloved at least, would understand the phase I've been going through. But now, I don't expect anyone to understand the commotions that are rumbling inside this distorted mindset. Who am I kidding? Even the extremely talented personages like Isabella Blow and Alexander McQueen decided to hit the stop button simply because they thought there's almost nothing ethereal in life plus they felt terribly empty and lonely. Well yes, maybe they were too naive and they were playing God, but think of it for a second, will someone ever find his or her true bliss? Do they deserve to be blamed for the emptiness and loneliness they feel? I'm not saying I'm 100% agree with them, but I must say they have a point. The point where I am now is that I don't know what right and what's real anymore. What's even worse that I have no clue how I am meant to feel anymore. I guess the fear has taken me to my inner thoughts. Maybe they were to afraid to admit that they're not alone because if they did, they will felt even much lonelier, just like I do now.
No I am not going to hang myself, I still want to live. Yet, I will certainly stop hoping for good things to occur. I learned that hoping for something wonderful to happen won't do me any good. Go ahead and call me a proud pessimist, because I think I already turned into one.

These Shoes are Made to be Glorified

2010-03-28T09:08:00.009+01:00

Since I stepped in my feet into the whimsical yet mischievous industry, I slowly realized that among all the fashion components that are exist in this whole wide world, shoes are the ones that capture my attention the most. Go ahead and put on your fanciest Elie Saab couture and such, but without a pair of epic shoes, that dress you're wearing will not be as stunning as you expect it to be. Well I hope this won't sound out of context, but I am graduating my diploma year this upcoming June and since I have to undergo a quite titillating final project, me and my group mates decided to establish a shoe line inspired by artworks and other art-related pieces. Above are some of the shoes that I think is incredibly exquisite and judging from the way they look and executed, they came from extra superior notions that fashion isn't always about gems, stones, and other glamorous shimmering particles, it is also about portrayal of beautiful mother nature God has given us, as well as the most biological thing you have ever imagined, human anatomy that is. Well, I am crossing my fingers as the shoes that I came up the concept with are going to be safe and sound next week. Hope everything will turn out accordingly as I planned. Amen.

Images courtesy of: Shoelust

Freud Van Noten

2010-03-05T08:17:00.006Z

Dries Van Noten F/W 2010 Ready-to-Wear

Question arises from the legendary Sigmund Freud "What does women really want?" Well, according to Sarah Mower of Style.com, you ladies want something that is casual yet formal, aggressive, traditional, and on top of that, fresh. Yes, freshness (and originality, if I may add) are things that is lacking nowadays. Without any intention of being sexist, humans, women in particular, have more preferences than most men. Well yes, underline the word most since clearly there is a certain 'group' of men who value aesthetics of both fashion and femaleness, even sometimes more than women do, formidable subculture that is.

Moving on, I personally have been waiting for Paris Fashion Week to start and been curious about what Monsieur Dries Van Noten will bring this time to the table. At last, that day finally arrived. First thing first, I realize that I am not a fashion expert/genius/smart-ass, I barely know the terms in fashion although I enrolled in fashion school, yet, I just would like to express my notions about one of my favorite designers' latest collection. No harm trying, aight? Okay, here it goes. To me, this Dries Van Noten F/W 2010 RTW was quite boring in the beginning. It didn't look and feel like the previous ones Dries done, but thank Lord up in heaven, the virtuoso of this fashion house still kept digital prints going on in his last few pieces. In terms of styling, it reminded me of YSL ; being simple and sophisticated that is. On the other hand, the few first pieces rang the bell of Marni S/S 2010. The khaki looks and their cutting urged my tiny pesky brain to associate them with Marni. Nonetheless, they still had Mr. Dries' twist and signature all over the collection, which was beautifully executed. Overall, all I can say is, it was sleek and effortlessly chic.

So much of a notion, eh? Well, what can I say, a certain type of guy's got to try to make his way to the top, which is rather perplexer.

(Images courtesy of Style.com)

Be Italian

2010-02-24T05:51:00.019Z

Current Craze: Fransisco Cominelli of Vogue Hommes

Assistant Editor/Stylist

A man with originality. Ti adoro, Sig. Cominelli

Mucho Caliente

2010-02-24T04:25:00.008Z

Rodarte F/W 2010 (Images courtesy of Style.com and JakandJil)

Dearest Mexicanos and Mexicanas should feel honoured whenever they catch a glimpse of Rodarte's F/W 2010 collection. Mulleavy sisters has yet again amaze fashion aficionados with their visionary design. From floral chiffon to burnout velvets, these 2 chicas utterly know how to interpret art installations into impeccable pieces. Their trip to southern part of States somehow inspires them to execute such collection out of mexican roots and sleepwalking. No one really knows what and how they come up with such concept, not even the almighty Lagerfeld or Wintour. They have this distinctive characteristic and certain ability that other fashion lieutenants do not possess. Towered heels with multi-layered knit socks and pale look really work for people with exquisite taste of style. Nicholas Kirkwood once again came to the rescue of Rodarte's footwear. This time, the shoes are marvelously dreamy. They glowed as the show ended, and people started to realize that those heels are literal depicition of melting wax, which are uber awe. Well, what can I say, fashion cyborgs got to eat, and thank God Rodarte offer us a whole plate of fascination.

Famine of Originality

2010-02-23T20:37:00.004Z

1990s is a period of time when such thing as originality still exist. Nothing is overrated nor underrated. The music was impeccable, fashion was not as commercial as today, and celebrities/icons were much more inspiring. Named Nirvana and its front man, Kurt Cobain, plus Claudia Schiffer. They may not be as popular as Pete Wentz or Agyness Deyn, yet Cobain and Schiffer has a lot more to offer than nowadays superstars. There is something in them that give us goosebumps whenever we heard their names mentioned. Yes, originality that is. They're simple yet distinctive. Whatever happens to originality and genuineness? That's one question that I've been asking God, the world, and myself lately. The world has turned into a total fake ass. Nothing and no one seems true to themselves. I'm not saying that I'm original or whatever the term is. I, myself, has turned into a type of person that is weak and vulnerable to everything that is commercial and overrated. I'm not being true to myself in certain circumstances ; I tend to follow what's in trend, life/fashion/music wise. I feel sorry for everything that is breathing within this mother earth, including myself. The world is experiencing famine of originality. Well, who am I kidding, I have no power to judge. This soul is weary and longing for something new, exciting, warm, and yet again, original. Is there such thing? As those mischievous mankind vocalized, let's just see how it goes..

Crash Test Dummies - Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm

Welcome Back, Mr. Wang

2010-02-15T05:20:00.002Z

(Alexander Wang RTW F/W 2010)

It is nice to see you back on track, dearest Alexander Wang

Damsel in Distress

2010-02-05T06:06:00.006Z

It's now 1.42 pm. I'm sitting here at the office, surrounded by this small cubicle, writing this post, have nothing more to do as I finished writing some shitty features for the magazine I worked for. My boss-es are all out for meeting and the crappy witch keeps pushing them to do something that I don't know. Going to have a last minute photo shoot tomorrow morning. Yes, I gotta work on Saturday morning, so much of a life huh? But anyway, I think I'll enjoy the shoot as I need something to distract my mind out of someone. So, yea, it's not much of a big deal.

I love how Irina and Sean looked here in the picture I found. I forgot which spread this was from, but I must say they have that radiance of love. Life seems different when you are a celebrity, model, musician, or even an heiress. Oh hell yea I envy them stars. Everytime I look at them, I'm thinking "What if I am one them? Would life be easier? Or would it be even more complicated?" But well, who am I kidding. I'm just a 20 year old kiddo from a mystificating city called Jakarta who is in his early stage of quarter life crisis and got his heart broken recently.

Gotta pick up some extravagant clothes with my lady boss. See you in another life.

'10

2010-01-13T21:18:00.002Z

As JoJo (remember that one hit wonder teenage pop sensation from couple years back?) once said, "It's just too little too late", I would like to wish you all the readers (if there's ever one) a merry new year! 2010, the year that some beautiful people around me declared as a stunning year, has finally made its way to this mother earth. So far, it has been going pretty well for me, in spite of the fact that I have to start working on my Diploma project, as well as internship.

Most people marked the first day of 2010 as the ideal time to design their resolutions. Well, I personally have no resolutions up till this very moment, but I do have targets (if it is ever deem as resolutions). Since I ought to start my diploma project very soon, which is establishing a brand with a kick-ass marketing concept, I have to come up with an idea of what I'm going to conduct pretty soon. The idea of me graduating diploma in 6 months is freakishly frightening to be honest. The pressure is super on, not to mention the internship. Time flies by quiet fast and I do hope I will be able to achieve all those so-called targets by the end of this year.
So much for the beginning of new year, eh? Well, wish me loads and loads of luck, guts, brainwaves, and cash (only if you mean it) so that I'll be able to realize my targets, which are as elusive as these two delusional pair of Givenchy. Au revoir for now everyone, Godspeed!

This is How Every Woman Should Look Like

2009-12-24T09:56:00.005Z

Lily Allen x Harper's Bazaar Russia Jan '10

This craze for Lady Allen just won't stop. Oh well, go ahead and call me obsessed, cause I think I am.

Till We Meet Again, Brit

2009-12-20T19:39:00.001Z

Dear Brittany,

This is sad, uber sad. I've just heard the news that you, the leading lady of my all time favorite movies, "Love and Other Disasters", passed away of a heart attack earlier today. This particular movie I'm talkin' about is not your box-office hit but nevertheless, me and my mate, Alyza, adore and look up to you and Matthew Rhys' role in this movie, a lot.

May God rest your soul, Brit. Take care and have a blast up there. Love and Other Disasters will never be the same without you..

Sincerely yours,

God Bless You, Tommy Ton

2009-12-20T18:21:00.003Z

The Eccentric Catherine Baba

Liu Wen in Balenciaga's Aviator Coat Fall '04

This is what I called "Role Model"

Hi there, Smith and Bowles

As corny and cliche as it sounds, J'adore Dior

When chandelier and heels gave birth to a pair of prettiness

Dear Tommy Ton, I envy you to the very core for having a chance to trot the globe and encounter such exquisite pieces. Go on and snap more ; prove it to me and the rest of the human race that there is such thing as beauty in this crazy little thing called life.

Pictures: Courtesy of Tommy Ton's Jak & Jil

A Single Man

2009-12-20T06:52:00.003Z

Don't disappoint me, Mr. Ford.

Summary: A Design Delegation

2009-12-19T08:01:00.008Z

Photos: Courtesy of Putri Murti

So, last term, I got this module called "Coordination and Promotion" that I must undergo. As you can see and judge from the name of the module, my batch basically have to establish an event that is related to art ; particularly, fashion. In the history of Raffles' Fashion Marketing event, my seniors had came up with the idea of coordinating a fashion show. This year, my batch sincerely wanted to create something different and distinguish, and therefore, we all came up with this idea of establishing an art exhibition. Weeks and weeks passed by, the day of the event has finally arrived. Some of the ferocious local brands, such as Blackmarket, Reckless Ericka, Hansel, Shito, To-a-Tee, FruFru & Tigerlily, as well as my lecturer Je Jung's internationally renowned brand named Wrkroom were participating. The venue was quiet packed and thank The Almighty we successfully achieved the kind of ambience and hype that we expected.

I still have 6 months to go till my diploma and by that, I have to start working on my diploma project next semester. The thought of me graduating diploma year is seemingly excited, yet the other thought of establishing a brand/store is ultra frightening. I'm thinking of creating a footwear line and in order for this idea to be possible, I gotta come up with a kick ass marketing concept and exuberant merchandise. Well, let's just see how it goes and wish me luck dearest critics.

Probably The Cutest Couple I've Ever Seen

2009-12-19T07:46:00.003Z

Martone et Jacobs

tres magnifique!

Battle of the Sexes

2009-12-16T19:58:00.001Z

My current crush(es). This might sounds eerie, but I wish I could go to bed with them tonight. Enough said.

Take Me Somewhere I Could Call a Home

2009-12-16T19:06:00.004Z

WHERE AM I ?

Those 3 words and 1 big fat question mark have been haunting me for the last 4 years. I am now currently in Jakarta, Indonesia, the place that is closest to the word 'home'. I've been wondering, what is the real definition of word 'home'? Well, according to Macintosh's dictionary, the word 'home' means:

The place where one lives permanently, esp. as a member of a family or household.

Yes, my family is here in Jakarta, but no, I don't live here permanently.

I asked this particular question to some of my friends and one of them told me that his definition of the word home is:

The place where one feels comfortable, serene, and secure.

Yes, I feel comfortable, but no, I don't feel serene or secure, at all.

Hallmark once said that the word 'home' means:

Home is where your heart is.

Yes, I do have a thing called heart, but no, I'm not sure that my heart is somewhere around home.

It seems extremely difficult for me to digest the word 'home'. I've been living in 2 nations, but so far I haven't find the feel of being secure and serene at this thing called 'home'.

Yes, lately I've been losing myself, but no, I sincerely don't want to feel like this forever.

Dear God, if by any chance you read this post, do give me feedback and solution on how to answer this simple yet burdensome question. Hope to hear from You soon.

Your so-called lost sheep,

Need I Say More ?

2009-12-14T05:01:00.004Z

Desaturating a La Mode

2009-12-14T03:30:00.001Z

Last Month Fashion156's Spread

If only white Christmas existed in Southeast Asia, I would kill for that two-toned Raf Simons coat.

I am Paranoid,but no Android

2009-11-23T10:59:00.000Z

I've been feeling so miserable lately, I have nothing to look forward to, no more excitement, no more joviality, no more smile and laughter, all that left is only sadness. This isn't exactly the kind of expression that people would refer as "Emo", I called this thing as "Depiction of Sorrow". Well fuck yeah that sounds indubitably emo, but still, I extremely pissed when those jerks associated the word "Emo" with me. For the fuck of life, I ain't got no eyeliner on me and I still cover my tears with my happy face everytime I meet up with people. Yes, I'm feeling suicidal and all I've got is negative vibe, nothing more than that. 

This is a note from a paranoid underachiever who's fed up with the monotonous in life and how plastic this world and the people in it could be. 

Double Trouble

2009-11-22T10:53:00.000Z

Oh, Gagoncé: Until the day that the pop universe inevitably black-holes in one final blast of glitter, comet dust and tranny couture, these two can’t stop-won’t stop.

Tell Jesus I said Hi, dear Daul

2009-11-21T21:32:00.002Z

"I need to learn how to stop destroying myself, stop being hard on myself and be nice to myself." - Daul Kim

Dear Daul,

I feel the same pain as you do. I know how it feels like to have second thoughts about yourself. Does it feel like no one understand you? Does it feel like your world start to fall apart by the time you turn 20? Does it feel like you don't belong anywhere? Does it feel like you have no home/comfort zone and no one to turn to? If the answer is yes, we're totally on the same page and you are truly my soul mate. Well, too bad you gotta go meet The Father who art in heaven earlier than I do.

Take care dear, have fun up there and I shall see you soon.

Love and other disasters,

Daud

Blame The Goddamn Insomnia

2009-11-18T21:21:00.003Z

Yes, another late night notion of mine. It's now 10 to 5 in the morning and I can't seem to put myself to sleep. I have a pretty tough class to attend in approximately 4 hours and I'm sure it'll be much tougher since I'm still awake now.

So how are you folks doin' today, tonight, and now? How's life treatin' you lately? Well, if you ask how's mine going so far, my life is as absurd as the Copacabana disaster below. Well, obviously, the color scheme doesn't portray the life I'm living in, since it's bright and positive. God knows that mine is the total opposite ; too bad this freak of nature doesn't come in dark and dull colors, cause if it is, it'll totally be the depiction of my so-called elusive life.

Okay, y'all can start breathing now cause this post is about to reach its end. Last but not least, I'd like to give a chance for Radiohead to put me to sleep. Hope this thing works. Good dawn, cruel cruel world.

When Nudity Becomes an Epic Phenomenon

2009-11-18T09:11:00.000Z

Spice Girls - "Naked"

One Good-Natured Kid

2009-11-18T08:10:00.000Z

Meet Nina, the ever demurest kid I've ever seen in my entire life. She got the look, she got that essence of toddler's cuteness (eventhough she's now 4 years old), and she got the brain. Regarding the brain thingy, listen to what she complains about in this video and how she responds to what her parents said to her. I have a thing with babies/toddlers and this one captures my attention the most. I adore you baby Nina, I sincerely do.

What Are You Trying Tell Me, O Dear Skies?

2009-11-16T22:46:00.001Z

Immortality: Depicted

2009-11-09T11:42:00.004Z

Blackmarket: Manifesto

Pictures: Courtesy of Daud Gultom

The Guitar Hero of All Time

2009-10-16T21:43:00.001+01:00

You never cease to amaze me, Mayer. Never.

Thou Who Trespasses Shall Burn in the Sea of Flame

2009-10-11T20:44:00.005+01:00

Don't you dare messing with me cause I'll mess you even worse until you wish you were never born, dear fuckers.
And I am done crying over shits from you fuckers. Now, it's time for you idiots to taste my wrath and shed in tears of blood.

PS: I may look helpless and weak, but once you mess with me, I'll be the total opposite. So, be-fuckin-ware.

Sincerely,
Your Worst Nightmare

Meet Coco Allen

2009-10-06T07:52:00.004+01:00

Lily Allen x Chanel Coco Cocoon

Ferociously Influential

2009-09-18T10:14:00.005+01:00

Rodarte S/S 2010 RTW

As Sarah Mower said about Rodarte's latest collection, "It's an imaginary world that's ferocious rather than precious, not to mention ferociously influential", this collection is by far the most visually stunning collection ever made by Rodarte and the most creative show I've ever seen from this year's fashion week. The Mulleavy sisters surely know how to bring about audience's attention and how to establish the thing called 'brand awareness'. They put up one hype show by using that so-called poison ivy smoke and tatooed their prototypes (read: models) with such tribal-ish thoughts. Well, I don't know much about tatoo nor tribal, yet, those tatoos remind me of the ancient tribe of Aztec and Mayan, and therefore I think they've succeeded on indoctrinating people (or at least me) with the uber tribal tatoos. The garments themselves sucessfully interpreted the 4 words that the Mulleavy sisters trying to capture, which were primitivism, futurism, scarred, and beautiful. Again, I don't know much about the technical in fashion, but still, the silhouettes and the choices of fabrics were impeccable and genius. Everything went perfect together and I couldn't ask for more. Moving on, the styling was again, ferociously influential. The tatoos were captivating, the make-up was palely gorgeous, and the shoes were just simply astonishing. The idea of collaborating with Nicholas Kirkwood was one hell of a thought and thank God it went superbly well.
I salute and praise Rodarte and Kirkwood for their remarkable collaboration. May the God of fashion bless them abundantly and enjoy the video below.

The Real Devil Wears Real Prada

2009-09-10T15:12:00.002+01:00

"The September Issue"
I am going to watch this, no matter what.

She's in Fashion

2009-09-09T13:42:00.002+01:00

Lily Allen x ELLE UK Oct '09

So, yea, yesterday, I was really bored at home and my brain refused to work accordingly, hence, I didn't even bother all of those shitty assignments and decided to go to town to grab some dinner (Far East Chicken Rice, to be exact). Done with the chicken rice, my distorted brain told me to go to Kinokuniya, so then, I made a move there. The books in Kinokuniya were all irresistible, but I had my eye on this book called "Modern Menswear". It consists of all menswear designers from Dries Van Noten to Henrik Vibskov (which are my favourite virtuosos), yet I couldn't afford to buy it since I'm freakishly broke. Moving on, I went to the magazine section and I saw this exquisite looking lady on the magazine cover, and it turned out to be my version of music Goddess, Miss Lily Allen on Elle UK October 2009. I briskly grabbed the magazine and immediately flipped through the fashion spread, and for the love of God, she looked indubitably gorgeous and stylistically hip! My unconscious mind started to rambling whether I should buy this Elle or not (since I'm drop dead broke). I ended up buying the magazine simply because I love how Allen looked there plus it's Lily Allen for heaven's sake, I better buy it or else!
Well, I know that some of you (or maybe all) think "So what, huh? What is the relevance between this fashion spread your craze for Allen?". I must say, there is no relevance. I'm just being random and God knows this is my godforsaken page, so screw you if you think that way. Enough said, time to achieve my so-called fashion orgasm, toodle-oo!

Couldn't Agree More

2009-09-02T20:02:00.002+01:00

A Grimace Distorted My Mindset

2009-08-26T21:28:00.003+01:00

So, it is now almost 5 in the morning and I've just read this one post from one of my stimulant's blog (haven't got a chance to put her blog on the stimulants list though) and I've been thinking of her notions. I quoted:

"I've been thinking a lot about my progression in life this year.
A lot of things happened this year, and I could say that they were rather nerve-poking.
And right now I'm relying to The Boss up there to do all the work. I'll just follow Him from behind...no complain. What's your religion today? love, life, or fashion?"

Well, first of all, I personally experienced stuffs that she did. Everything seems nerve-wracking and I've been praying to The Almighty to grant me serenity and a brand new mindset. I feel like my current mindset is seriously distorted and thus I need Him to gimme the healthier one. Let's just hope that my Homeboy cherish me with His abundant blessings, enough said.

Paper Bag Princess

2009-08-20T10:17:00.003+01:00

Sasha Pivovarova x W Magazine Sept '09

Would you peasants take a look at our new Princess of Astounding Paper Bag Land, her highness Sasha Pivovarova? Hail to the Princess, may the goddess of fashion bless her and sire Craig McDean for these beautifully captured pieces.

"I like sex, not so keen on drugs anymore, fame is something that confuses me"

2009-08-20T10:02:00.002+01:00

Lily Allen x I-D Magazine

These Are All Commotions

2009-08-14T21:05:00.008+01:00

Silent Rage

2009-08-14T20:32:00.004+01:00

Facebook and Twitter are equal to TMI.
I've had enough of those godforsaken commercial sites.
I hate the way life treated me. It is superficially bittersweet.
One day you're in love, and the next day you get your heart broken.
God should've never invent love, happiness, and sorrow as well.
He should let us, His so-called sheep, be senseless.
Because sometimes not feeling is the only way to survive.

2009-08-06T17:13:00.001+01:00

I'm switching off myself.
See you in another life.

God Bless Absurdity

2009-08-06T04:05:00.008+01:00

Snippets from Henrik Vibskov S/S 2010: The Solar Donkey Experiment Show
God bless your visionary way of thinking, Mr. Vibskov.

I Miss You Like Crazy

2009-07-25T22:20:00.004+01:00

"i love u so ....and i miss u so much ....

and don't worry....
:))))))))))))))))))" (July, 2009)

I really miss you, Sale. I really wish you were here so that I could talk to you in person about this spasmodic life..

2009-07-22T19:59:00.005+01:00

I believe that if I'm facing a problem or two, the best thing to do is keep those things to myself.
I don’t bother to tell other people that I'm miserable ot whatsoever cause they won’t even care.

Impressing Impressionism

2009-07-21T20:41:00.008+01:00

Dries Van Noten S/S '08 RTW

Dries Van Noten S/S '08 RTW (this is what I called epic and astonishing)

Rodarte F/W '08 RTW

Missoni S/S '08 RTW

Y&Kei F/W '08 RTW

Balenciaga S/S '08 RTW

So yea, I've just finished my assignment about Impressionism in Fashion for a lovable module called Style & Trends. Basically, the lecturer asked us, the mentally tortured underlings, to identify any type of art movements and I finally chose Impressionism. Well I'm not really sure whether my interpretation of this art movement and its fashion is right or a big no no, since the presentation day is not up until this very afternoon. But still, I'm in love with those garments and shoes I displayed above. Dries Van Noten's are my favourite by the way, they're just incredibly epic and flawless! Okay, enough said, going off to bed now, wish me luck with the presentation!

2009-07-17T20:09:00.003+01:00

I don't trust anyone, mainly because I don't trust myself. I second guess everything that anyone ever says to me, even if I know they're being genuine. I think of horrible reasons they may have for tricking me into believing things. I'm so paranoid of being hurt by anyone, that I only end up hurting myself and pushing people away.

Sad & Satire

2009-07-17T20:04:00.001+01:00

You are truly inspirational, you really are

Visually Stunning

2009-07-16T01:08:00.005+01:00

Hussein Chalayan: Earthbound - F/W '09

Emma Watson for Burberry F/W '09

Tranquility, Where Art Thou ?

2009-07-14T21:03:00.005+01:00

2009-07-14T19:34:00.001+01:00

Nobody worth to be trust in.
People are people, they are nothing but disappointments.

A State of Great Disturbance and Confusion

2009-07-12T21:45:00.003+01:00

The bittersweet and short summer break has finally reach its end. It is time for me to pack my things and go back to that land of misery again. As you all may know, I have no interest on going back to that godforsaken city, but frankly speaking, I am somehow excited. Well, I am still sad with the fact that I have to go back to school and encounter some disappointments later on, yet, I feel that there is no point staying home without doing anything significant as home feels a lot less like home. It's not that I really despise this term break, it's just I had fights with my mom and I feel like I'm not home at my own home. Jakarta feels quite different than I remember. The euphoria has turned into dysphoria. The happiness has turned into disappointments. The family has turned into a whole different institution. The friendship has (sometimes) turned into a turmoil, and so does the love life. I don't know what to say, I got no clue what the hell is happening. It's really hard for me to define the word 'home' nowadays. It seems like I have nowhere to run and no one to turn to.
Yes, I am pretty much miserable.
Yes, I am in the verge of mental breakdown.
Yes, I am having a trust issues.
Yes, I am having a quarter life crisis.

This One Goes Out For You

2009-07-11T10:47:00.001+01:00

I like you too much
After too little time
I hold back my heart’s crazy rambling
The fear that I should overwhelm your smile
Frightens the spiders inside me

Oh this could be magic
After all, after all

You daren’t define which has happened to us
Well, I’ve had a name for it for some time
You try to find what it is that you feel
I long to tell you so truly

Oh this could be trouble
After all, after all

And I say is it a dream like it was back then
Is it a dream like it was back in the stars
Could I be so wrong? Could I be so wrong?

Chew every word to prevent what I know
From slipping right out of my fingers
Out of control, I don’t know where to go
‘Cause you were my map when I found you

Oh this could get lonely
After all, after all

And I say is it a dream like it was back then
Is it a dream like it was back in the stars
Could I be so wrong? Could I be so wrong?

No one can say all the things that they feel
Without the risk of a failure
So keep in my cards close to my heart
All of you I loved from a distance

Oh this should be magic
After all, after all

2009-07-09T20:53:00.001+01:00

THINK OF HOW DIFFERENT IT WOULD BE
IF YOU NEVER MET THE ONE PERSON WHO
CHANGED EVERYTHING

2009-07-08T07:09:00.003+01:00

DISAPPOINTMENT & LONELINESS
ARE MY BEST FRIENDS
and
I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE,
NOT EVEN YOU

Meet One of My Sweethearts, Anishka!

2009-07-07T21:50:00.003+01:00

Let Her Random Thoughts Stream

2009-07-05T22:15:00.003+01:00

Is That So ?

2009-07-04T19:51:00.001+01:00

Fly Me To Bangkok

2009-07-01T20:53:00.003+01:00

Couple weeks ago, my friends, Ansy and Wiwid, went to Bangkok for a lil' backpacking trip. They took these 2 oh-so-drooling pictures and tagged me on 'em. Y'all can reckon why on earth I wanna go to that whimsical city, can't you? The sky and the shoes are truly breathtaking, indeed. Gosh, I am desperate for a real vacation, big time. Could someone please fly me to Bangkok, like.. NOW ?

Hypocrisy is the Way to Socialise

2009-07-01T20:50:00.001+01:00

Don't you agree ?

Us ?

2009-06-14T21:02:00.005+01:00

Why do you always leave me with your ambiguous utterance and acts ?

Serenity

2009-06-12T21:20:00.003+01:00

If only I could live beneath the tranquil clouds